Let me start off by stating one thing; I am NOT a feminist nor do I want to be, however, I AM anti expectations from me just because I am a female.
A few days ago, my insecurities went viral because of a small conversation I had with a someone (male) close to me (not my husband don't worry!). It all started out with me being the only girl wearing sneakers and wanting to go on a night out on the town in Dubai. If you've been there, you know that is merely impossible for a girl to get in a "cool" place wearing flats even if they were made of gold. For some reason heels are for safety reasons. Or maybe if I was taller on a wobbly thin heel is better for me who knows, but nonetheless, I was in sneakers and if you know me, I'm always in sneakers, so I got told off for blowing everyone's plans because of my shoes (I wasn't part of the plans to start with). When I tried to defend myself because I hate being in pain just for society standards (I also have bunion problems) I was told to suck it up and wear the freakin heels! So I tried to be sassy and say: have you ever worn heels before to know how I feel?! He said no, but that's not my job! Really?! Is it my JOB to wear heels?!
It didn't just stop there, he went on to tell me that I've gotten too comfortable since I got married! That I dress like a slouch and have forgotten how to be ladylike. Then my mind read the hint he was trying to give me: Like my entire life my aim was to get married then get fat! I have been more insecure about my weight and body image since I got married than I have ever been my entire life. It's like all my teenage monsters came back to congratulate me about getting married. It's not a welcomed visit and they've certainly overstayed they're welcome!
Why are we expected to dress up and look pretty all the time? What is this male dominated world we live in?! I'm not saying stop shaving your legs and stop wearing your bras, but if I don't wear heels it shouldn't make me any less of a woman! And if I'm not a certain size or fit, and I don't recollect having a standard to go by, then that doesn't make me uglier!
I say this trying to change people's minds and expectations about what women are expected to look like, but I still judge myself all the time for not looking like the girl in the magazine! Maybe if people should stop having such expectations I would too and live in piece!
